heart ache.
Kelli, Kellz
emosloveyou
So much for fairy tells and mushy love stories. I don't think there's a happy ending f
or me just a aching heart. I don't know how I feel anymore. I love him but I don't know if this is spose 2 last forever. I've been waiting for the awnser all dayM
Wheb the time comes the awnser will come 2 me. But its defently not now.

Sorry.
Kelli, Kellz
emosloveyou

Here I am again trying to think of the right words to say for the best apology yet ever made by me. I cant stop thinking of all the things I regret, Hurting you. Every time I do mess up it draws us closer. I need you, I want you. Why would I give up somthing that i've been waiting for my whole life? I can feel inside me it feels so right. On the other hand I do imagine what life would be like If didnt have you. Sometimes in the midst of things it feels like I cant move on. I hate seeing my friends brag about them doing this and that. It breaks my heart into a million pieces and I cant pick them up, But you always do. Your the Cheese to my macoronie. hehe. I cant Live without you. You need me I need you, and that is that.Please For give me Kevin Lee Carlton. I love you with all of my heart and soul.I hope you believe me.I just need help right now. im going through a lot of stuff.

Zachary McCarthy.
Kelli, Kellz
emosloveyou

There are times when I think of you,

Times I wish I still had You.

But I know I can't ever have you.

Your heart was never with me,

but to some obseen other.

I cant get you out of my Head,

Your the drug that Keeps my heart beating.





"Lying all alone, Wishing you would call."
Kelli, Kellz
emosloveyou

Here I am again writing to whom ever will read this, my shattered heart still being picked up piece by piece. Sometimes I sit and Wander why I am sad, I still havent found my awnser. theres like this broken Switch inside me, I keeps Flickering on and Off, I cant Control it. I have the person I love and Care about Right here infront of me but I keep shunning him away. why you may ask? I believe its cause im scared of Love. True Love. The Kind of Love that You Find someone you want to spend the Rest of your Life with. Like I said Before theres this thing, this beast inside me that cant be controled. Sometimes I dont even know what to say, so bad harmful things come out.  It makes me do things I know I really shouldnt be doing, but I do them Anyways Just to seem "cool". Why? Because im a complete Dumbass.

Me Myself and I.
Kelli, Kellz
emosloveyou
Theres a story of when a girl meets boy, I'm that Girl, and this is only the first chapter.

Zachary McCarthy.
Kelli, Kellz
emosloveyou


Its sad to say but there are times when I wish I still had you. There is times I miss you. Theres times that I wonder if you ever think of me. But I know I can not have you, I can never have you. Your heart was never with me, it was always with someone better. You always says you could of done better, why didnt you? Its amazing How at random times I can have a memory of you and it can make me completly sad or Complety happy... U have changed me. You've made me someone I thought I would never be, and never wanted to be. There was a time when I was lost and depressed, the cause... was you. I didnt know who I was, I was in a dream land where there was only 2 people in there, Me and You...I Will Always Love You.. dont forget that... I cant wait to talk to you again.. Until then I love you.


In Love
Kelli, Kellz
emosloveyou

Lets dance together till the sky turns to gray. Hold me till the moon falls from the sky. Kiss me till I fall sleep. And most of all keep me in your heart till the end of days, till we cant move on. But dont foreget to meet me in the place were going. A place that is unviewable to the human eyes, a place where only the worthy go, and Never foreget I will love you forever and ever. No matter where Life may lead us, or which path we go down or what the future may hold.

The Ocean Waves
Kelli, Kellz
emosloveyou

Let the ocean waves take you away from this place of Misery and Dispear,go to a place where you are loved, in the arms of your beholder.
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Best Friend Troubles
Kelli, Kellz
emosloveyou

Its sad to say but, I let my Very Best Friend down. I cheated on a test just so I dont fail a class, and now I can see the Dissapointment in her Eyes. Are Best Friends spose to love each other? I love her, as a sister, but I asked her and she Denied.... I feel like Crying But the tears wont come out. My Guilty Conscience roaring in my head Murdering me slowly. oh how I wish I coul change things.... but the past is unchangeable so move on.
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History Class Thoughts...
Kelli, Kellz
emosloveyou


Have you ever felt like the wrong this was actuly the right thing... feeling as if you should't be doing this but at the same time feels so right in your heart? But knowing that the person you love the most would be totaly devistated if they knew what you were doing behind there back. What if that person lived far away, you so Hey, they'll never know... I just wanna try something before I commite to something im not ready for... I spend day after day wondering if my Desicion was right...Its so hard to fall in love with someone you are not Physicly Attracted to. But its hard to break someone over something you are only feeling while the other is completly in love with you. And do Hiding in a shell for the rest of you life ins't going to work. I have a big Desicion to make, But last time I made it I ended up hurting someone Who is completly in love with me. I dont know how...or when... But one thing is for sure I insure you I know whose heart is going to be broken... the one I feel nothing with, because theres no attraction there... friends would b good but nothing more and nothing less, we shall never love again.



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